As John Lennon’s song goes “So this is Christmas And what have you done Another year over And a new one just begun” With a new year upon us I find myself reflecting on what I have done in 2012 and where I am going in 2013. Donating my kidney just four and half months ago left me feeling like I had done something remarkable in 2012. I helped my brother and potentially saved a life through the kidney donor program. Holding on to that feeling of worthiness and gratitude would be beneficial, however I find myself getting overwhelmed and lost in my own issues.
My sister Audrey and I discussed worthiness on the phone today. Do I feel worthy? What is our passion? What are we meant to do with our lives? How do we find meaning? To me it’s who we are in this world, each of us has the ability to be the change in the world we live in. We can support each other and choose to be compassionate to one another. It’s not always easy particularly when we get caught up in our own lives! One thing I have learned in the past year is that we are all in this together.
It feels like the North East has got hit hard in the past two months. Starting with the disaster “Sandy” leaving so many people homeless, then the shooting of innocent children in Connecticut and the most recent shootings of the fireman in our own hometown. We can all recognize energy when a friend or family member is angry or sad –we feel it. I think of the sadness and the fear that affects so many of us in the past two months and its good to feel the heartfelt stories of communities coming together at this time.
And so we embark on a new year. For me– my goals are not to get caught up in my own fears and to live a life of gratitude and openness. To continue to do yoga, eat healthy, work hard, trust my instincts and let go of the negative thoughts in my head that often leave me feeling seperate from others.
Happy New Year! Cheers to a healthy and peaceful year in 2013.